| Awakened Again? |
| Contributed by Nathan Colella | ||||||||
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I know I haven’t written anything in a while, but I will make it up in this blog. Something just happened to me, nothing I haven’t been through before, but I realised a lot of things I had forgotten or ignored. Today started off as a boring day but I started watching films today to pass time, I watched “paycheck” then “I am legend” Which coincidentally is about a virus outbreak and this guy is the only survivor (or so he thinks) and the date is 2012, sound firmiliar?After watching those I realised a few things about changing the future, and that there’s more to our evolution than we think, the idea that nothing will happen in the near future has 100% left my being. I went online to find a message on Myspace from a new friend, and she was pretty excited about something, talking about synchronicities and for me to look at a website. As I clicked the website one of my friends who I care about a lot came online. Suddenly I had these memories about our past and the dreams I used to have about her, which then I made clear to her and suddenly I had something open up inside me. Reading the website at the same time, I had all this information flood into my mind about too many things to comprehend, also another friend on msn was telling me about this awakening message he got in a dream last night which was very deep, in my opinion.
Lately I have been feeling down because I have lost all my connections to people like myself, like minded people I can open up too and connect with. Lately I have been alone and bored, not having any motivation to do anything at all, just felt really alienated. Brad, one of my best friends online has been with me from the start of my journey and lately he hasn’t been online for a while and I haven’t had anyone to progress with, we have always grown spiritually back to back, helping each other out. I cant stand being ignored and lately I have got so frustrated with being ignored by a whole lot of people (probably by no one who will read this). Again this has left me feeling alone, which is fine sometimes but you get those days where you look back and realise things that get you down. I have realised I haven’t had anyone in over six years, and my friends are fading away. I realised today that there’s a reason for this happening, even if I don’t like it at this current time.I know that my current state of being is pushing everyone away because I am no longer on the same wavelength as anyone around me, causing people to lose interest and feel there is no reason to be around me or talk to me. As you know this is caused by our auras attracting and repelling like energies. In my earlier days this caused a whole lot of people to be attracted to me (in a non sexual way) And now I have moved on, they have nothing more to learn off me so they get attracted to other people that will benefit their evolution. The only problem is im not really attracting anyone anymore; more and more people are fading only leaving me with me. I like my alone time too much now to let anybody in, im so used to it I somehow feel it’s going to be tough to develop any new relationships. In these six years the close intimacy I have had with women I have met, always seems too good to be true at first, then as quick as anything, they disappear from my life, and others I have gotten close too, haven’t felt right at all, as if I’m not capable of being close to anyone again. In a few instances when I’ve had a girl sharing my bed, I have trouble sleeping and had to sleep in another room on my own to get to sleep, this disturbs me because I feel like I cant connect to anyone anymore, and I don’t know why.
Anyway this is some personal stuff, only a tiny few will read but its good to let things out, this information pouring into my head earlier has opened my eyes and made me realise loads of stuff that has happened this year that I haven’t really noticed. I really feel awakened again right now, something I have missed for a couple of years, please let me know if you have had similar experiences, thanks Nathan
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