I held off writing a blog for a while, but I feel now is the time to write one because things are crazy here and I have been traumatized. Lately I have been sensitive and venerable and I haven’t been online much due to the good weather. A number of things have happened to be in the space of three days. I have lost three friends of mine for no reason, or at least from my point of view. I have been very deeply hurt by the cold hearted emotion thrown at me lately because I have chosen to be away from people for no less than a week and I’m being attacked for it.

My close friend told me my energy acts as a drug to some people who connect to me, they feed off my energy and it makes them high, but when I’m not there they get withdrawal symptoms and don’t know what to do. At first I thought nothing of it and thought it was just my friends having a bad day until it kept happening, then I realised it was actually like a druggie desperate to do anything to get the drug back, attacking madly without no remorse of how I feel or how they treat me, can I just be thrown away like trash? Or are people going to come round and realise what they have done? As the days pass it seems things are getting worse, energies becoming tense and people doing unexpected things. I expected things like this to happen but I didn’t expect myself to be so emotionally hurt by it. Maybe if they knew how I felt, they would apologize, maybe I’m asking too much, maybe I just have to move on and realize my energies are changing causing to attract and repel certain people.

People think they know the real me, but I have such a strong mind people can only see what I let them see, I don’t think my real self will be revealed until the right time. Many reading this don’t even know who I am but maybe can relate to what I’m saying because it’s happening to them too. As always I’m slowly getting myself back on track, replaying all I know in my head and keeping focused on my goals. I hope I gain the higher perspective again soon, peace.

Nathan

Comments (11)

9. Written by Gladiator, on 11-05-2007 02:10 It's all good mate, whatever happens