Nathan Colella

My first idea of life was a universe inside a universe inside a universe, never ending. The bit on men in black right at the end where they have a marble with a universe inside and then it zooms out and aliens are playing with a marble with the universe inside, which was basically the idea I had. Reason I had for this thought was because I thought about space a lot, how did space just go on forever? And when does inner space end? These are deep questions no one could answer which made me further interested in finding out for myself. The theory that people thought space was infinite and we are not, we just simply die and go back to oblivion, this truly didn’t make sense to me.

When I was small I had no doubt aliens existed and that paranormal activity wasn't fake, but everyday I would have people telling me that it wasn't real. I really had trouble getting my head straight in this weird world where nothing made sense and being told I would die and no longer exist. I used to be very interested in aliens and ghosts because at a young age that's all I knew about paranormal subjects, at a later age I learnt about psychic, clairvoyance and telekinetic abilities which fascinated me and inspired me to study them more. I used to read countless books about ghosts when I was about eight and onwards, every week I would go to the library and get a ghost book about true stories of ghost haunting’s. Most kids my age would be reading fiction books but I had this craving to know about ghosts and other unexplained phenomena, I couldn’t get enough of it! At the same time I felt like a minority by believing in ghosts and I couldn’t understand why no one else was interesting, it was mind boggling to me. I would read these books late at night, and some of these stories were bloody scary! But I wouldn’t be scared before going to sleep; I would stay awake and think about ghosts and what it would be like to be a ghost. The first time I actually saw a ghost freaked me out big time because not only did I see it, I felt it first, but it didn’t scare me as much as I thought it would. I was staying at my cousin’s house, and I was sleeping on the third floor, it was cold and had a freaky feeling to the room. I felt a presence in the room but I dismissed it and tried to go to sleep, not long after I felt someone sitting on my legs, I couldn’t move them so it obviously wasn't a cat. I carefully lifted the covers to see what it was and I saw this shadow sitting on the bed, I lifted the covers back over my head and hoped it would go away, after a while it did. After that night I never told anyone about what I experienced because no one would believe me. Just recently I found out my cousin saw loads of these ghosts in his house, I didn’t think anyone in that house was open enough to see them, but my cousin did and he still does! He describes them as shadow people who watch him when he sleeps, he finds them staring at him when he wakes up, sometimes just a couple of inches away from his face. Funny enough when I was interested in ghosts, everyone would open up to me and tell me their ghost experiences; I would just sit there listening in fascination. My dad’s girlfriend has about nine sisters, and they all tell the same story about their old house where they would see this ghost in the middle of the night walking round their house and walking through the walls. 

As I got my first Playstation and realised how 'realistic' games where getting in terms of physics and looks I had another idea about life come into my head. Suddenly I thought what if we are in a computer simulation, Virtual reality, a simulation 'God' made for us to play a game in which we control and evolve. At the time it seemed just another theory of mine until later on in life I found so much evidence pointing towards this theory. First of all things in life can be put in simple equations and we can insert these equations into computers which can then simulate it, computers are getting so advanced now they can create and simulate anything we input such as natural events, disasters, weather, the solar system etc. Today's simulation of space certainly suggests that it is a design by something far greater than we imagine and Einstein's theory of relativity certainly shows that the universe is on a matrix grid and that the sun is 90% of the solar systems mass which creates like a curve in the blanket its lying on and everything is rolling around the sun on the curves of the blanket. He proved that if the sun exploded, it would take a while for the earth to disconnect from orbit because gravity does not travel as fast as the speed of light. This theory has been simulated through computers and has been proved to be correct.

I had real trouble “fitting” into society all my life, especially in school and jobs because they would try make me into something I’m not. I’m what you would call a “right brainer” because the right side of my brain is the most active, where as 99% of the population have a dominant left brain. The right brain is the side that deals with creativity, inspiration, insight, dreams, images, spiritual life view and artistic attributes. The left side is what deals with maths, language, logic, physical life view and the five sense reality. The reason I had so much trouble functioning in society is because my “left brain” activity is really primitive compared to the rest of the population, and society today is only designed for left brainers, you reckon that’s by accident? Most people don’t understand that and for that reason I’m labelled “thick”, teachers used to give me low grades, keep me behind because I was shit in the classroom. My bosses think I have a “bad” and “wrong” attitude towards work and life, which I stated “it’s not right or wrong, it’ just different”. The comments that pissed me off was the comments about facing reality or the real world, just because I had a different outlook on life and what I could achieve, the world could be the exact opposite but it’s not, the reason it’s like this is because we have let it turn into this state. What you see around you is manufactured and designed by the system, designed to be a “left brain” society so that the left brain people are the ones who will get successful and go up in the system.

Fear of death, survival and money are the dominating forces that keep the world in its present state, where as I don’t carry those traits. I don’t fear death one bit, survival means nothing to me and money doesn’t either, many people have their minds baffled when I say this. I purely think people are dominated by these because the left brain is dealing with these forces without the right brain receiving the same information and filtering it, the education system and mass conditioning has imprisoned the left brain so both hemispheres work separately instead of as one. Survival doesn’t mean anything to me because it’s an animal attribute and it’s based on the fear of death and the fear of not continuing the growth of your species. Death in my view is a relief, it’s just as natural as being born, plus people try delaying the inevitable by fighting for survival (eye for an eye) because they don’t want to let go of the things they have achieved or built for themselves (ego).
Money in my view is just a piece of paper, if all the natural resources in the world ran out, what use would money be if there was nothing to buy? I value nature, the environment and all the living things more than money that’s for sure.
I found this old American Indian quote which sums this up:

"When all the trees have been cut down, when all the animals have been hunted, when all the waters are polluted, when all the air is unsafe to breathe, only then will you discover you cannot eat money."

A lot of people ridicule me due to what I value the most; nature has shown us if we mistreat it then we will suffer the consequences. The world has been here for billions of years, way before us so we should respect and take care of it, it really frustrates me when no one gives a shit about the world, the environment or other people, but instead care about how much money they have and who cheated on who on the latest soap opera. To be honest the world is falling apart in front of our eyes and what makes it worse is our freedoms are being snatched away from us and the kind of attitude people have is “as long as it don’t happen in my lifetime then its all right”, I don’t understand how people can fight to survive but then treat the world like shit. Humanity has become a virus, spreading and destroying without remorse, it goes to show how primitive we really are and a lot of growing up needs to be done.

In work, as soon as I did something different or stood out, I would be ridiculed and forced to change in order to be “acceptable” and smart, this really did piss me off to the limit, who created this image anyway? The image of shirt and tie with cheesy old men trousers, in my opinion it’s not smart, it’s just not “you”. Who would actually wear a shirt and tie outside of work? My point exactly.  I want the freedom to be who I really am and express myself the way I want. Instead people turn on me like I am some kind of criminal or outcast, it’s insane! People always try to turn “different” people into someone normal like everyone else. The world is boring enough having everyone act and dressing the same; it’s like watching a bunch of sheep following each other due to the fear of what other people think. WHO GIVES A SHIT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK, they are entitled to their opinions and so are you. People always try and be someone else because they don’t want that other person to think badly about them, the truth is everyone will have a different opinion about you, you can’t please everyone so just be yourself and be pleased with who you are. Most humans have the sheep mentality, following other people due to fear of ridicule; everyone wants to be a clone for some reason.
Anyway back to my story.

I found people were like sheep and they kept these beliefs because maybe it comforted them in some way that they didn't have to think about why and how they are here, but often people with different beliefs from what's not 'normal' are too scared of being ridiculed so their views and ideas don't get out. After a while I never told people about my thoughts because no one would understand them or call me weird. When the film 'The Matrix' came out I was shocked that a film had been created that was pretty much the same as my ideas on a computer simulated world. When I saw this film it confirmed for me that this was how life really was and I had no doubt about it. There was one point in my life where learning all this information I have now was inevitable because I always had an interest and a passion for paranormal and unexplained things that people just ignored because of their ignorance and belief systems, I had the ability of insight, to see things others couldn't. I used to have these dreams and images in my head of how the universe and worlds work as I was kid; I never understood them till now. For me, connecting A to B then to C was natural and I felt something deep down telling me there's something other than this dense 3D physical world we live in, and there had to be other beings on other planets due to the vastness of space, there's like a million planets in the universe to every grain of sand on earth, the idea of there being no life is utter ridiculous, but again I was ridiculed for my beliefs, pretty stupid huh? Anyway one day I was at work experience at my dad's work place, we got talking about unexplained things; I took an interest in Astral Projection because I had seen it on TV where they proved it was real.

He told me had done it once after trying for a month and one day he just gave up and then it just happened, he said it was the most unforgettable experience of his life and it scared him so much he didn't want to do it again. So that day I ended up reading about it for at least twenty four hours straight, I was fascinated. That night I ended up trying it for myself to prove to myself it was real, I tried so hard but nothing happened, as I tried going to sleep suddenly I started shaking and I opened my eyes because I was shitting myself and my vision was going all colourful. I floated out of body as I was fully awake, I saw the ceiling coming towards me but I couldn't stop it and I fought to get back, I felt so weightless like a helium balloon, I floated back down back into my body then a kind of "snap" happened as if my body and mind clipped together and my heart was beating so hard I thought I was going to die, I couldn't sleep that night because it was dark and I was shitting myself, very scary at first. I didn't try it again for at least two years after that because it shit me up so bad but I got my confidence back and decided to give it another go, after that I was able to do it again often and gained some rather amazing experience and knowledge while out of my body.

I received information about science, the pole shift, earth problems and government agenda's when I had OBE’s which I researched after the experiences. As it happens the knowledge I was getting during OBE’s were actually true, the experiences were showing me messages symbolically about certain information I should look up. My Quest for knowledge attracted certain people and situations to me so I would learn a great deal about spirituality and how to face certain things in life. The first thing I did was open up an MSN chat room called “astral projection” which attracted a lot of people who knew about the subject, I had the only AP room on MSN so attracting people wouldn’t be hard. This is where I met one of my soul mates Brad Turner. I met him in 2003 which is about the time I went through this awakening, and from then we have stayed best friends and have been through a lot together regarding our spiritual and emotional journeys.

In the following pages I will explain things in a scientific and spiritual point of view, both say the same things but people tend to only look at things from a scientific or sceptical point of view.
I wrote the science first so people would get an idea what I was on about in the later pages, plus reading the science first might open your mind a bit more.

Nathan